March 2, 2015

Scott Murphy is gay, or at least he assumes he is. But still he married his friend Shelly and had 11 wonderful years with her. But then, Shelly becomes ill and decides she needs to end her own life. Now for the first time in a long time, Scott needs to find out what he wants with his life and who he wants to spend his life with.

Shelly’s father takes him to a group where Scott can talk to other people who lost some one. That is where Scott meets Chris and instantly feels attracted to him. But can Scott really open up to Chris if he still feels strongly about Shelly. Will his friends and family still accept him when he comes home with a guy instead of a girl.

Scott more and more retreats from the world and sends all his friends away. He wants to be alone and is convinced he will never find love again. But Chris will have none of that and decides it is his job to get Scott out of the house and in to the world again.

Both boys have a lot they need to work through, but if they can help each other and find love and faith again, everything might work out for the best.

So, alright. The book wasn’t bad at all, really not. But some things just really bugged me. First of all, why on Earth would you  marry a girl if you are sure you are gay? I understand the sympathy and wanting to be there for someone who is ill and dying, but marriage? Very unlikely if you ask me.

And second of all, can we please cut out the dead girl crap in this book. Even though she dies in the first chapter or so, her words are still in the book. I guess she is supposed to look out for Scott from heaven or something, but honestly, it really annoys me. He loved her, he misses her and he feels sad about it. I understand that, but is it really necessary to make her speak again every other page. Sometimes I just wanted to scream at Scott “Get a hold of yourself, the woman is dead.”

And in that light, I don’t really understand the title. There is no big place for religion in this book, no mention of churches or anything else. I can only imagine Godsend refers to the way the boys meet and hit it off immediately, but someone needs to explain that to me someday.

If you don’t mind a dead person speaking every now and then, or a lot of hugging and kissing, than reading this book is a safe option for you.

Excerpt from the book, courtesy of authors personal website, you can find that here.

Between Jim, Bobby, and Shelly’s letter, I’ve decided to take one more step I’d rather avoid. It’s just one date, what harm can come from that? I suppose I should be grateful that the only people I’ve allowed in are those who know me well enough to sense that I can’t even consider looking at a woman right now. While I’ve softened a bit to the idea of at least talking to someone, having that person be a woman feels too much like I’m trying to replace her. It may be fucked up, but if there are muscular planes instead of soft curves and a firm grasp instead of tender caresses, it doesn’t seem like a betrayal.

Earlier I read another book by Sloan Johnson called “Teach Me” You can find my blog about that here.

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